cursed

21O2O9 - Danny K.'s 16th BIrthday.
25O2O9 - Jenny's 17th Birthday.

Hey, can I ask if you ever wish to turn back time so you can fix something you can't? Who am I kidding, whoever feels regret would definitely want to. In a previous blog, I defined regret as something that cannot be fix and that you'd feel about it. Yeah, everyone feels regret once in a while, and I sure have plenty. It's not like those incidents were my actions leads to another person's misery or death. Okay, maybe mild misery, but I don't intentionally do it, you know? But you know what I think? That's a PATHETIC excuse for making that mistake. Sure my clumsiness creates a few laughs here and there, but it also leads to accidents, like breaking things, dropping stuffs or tripping on an electrical wire which is attaching the laptop to the cable-whole-thingymabob (I forgot what it's called ^_^') and pulling the laptop down and breaking it to parts. Luckily, the laptop, or projectile thingy wasn't working in the first place anyways. If it did, boy am I in for a big bill! That's not all, actually. I feel so sorry for my science teacher, Mrs. Rogers, who have to put up with my clumsiness for the last 4 years, and counting. Actually, she's so tired of it that she has banned me from touching the glassware equipment in her science room. Yep. Talk about butterfingers. I'd like to APOLOGISE to TITAN, MRS. ROGERS, MISS JANSON and anyone else that my clumsiness happened to stain its misfortune on. I try to fix my mistakes, you know, by paying for the broken glassware, or fixing the projectile thingy, but the list seems endless. I don't know HOW to NOT be clumsy. I mean, me just leaning on something can break it, or me just holding an egg, or t ape, and walking can just drop to the ground. I thought my clumsiness was due to my raging hormones during my teenage years, but it's not. Seriously, it's not. I'm almost finishing my growth spurt, I'm about to turn into an adult in about half a year and I'm doing my HSC this year, and yet, I still have that clumsy spell enchanted on me. So, what I can do to stop myself being clumsy? I'll accept any ideas, and will attempt them all, so please, some help here?

"hopeless emptiness"

"Huh, hopeless emptiness... Now you've said it. Plenty of people are onto the emptiness, but it takes real guts to see the hopelessness..." quoted John Givings (Revolutionary Road).

Today, we truanted. I kid =). We were legally truanting! Again, I kid. We had an excursion to Burwood's Greater Union Cinema to watch Revolutionary Road, directed by Sam Mendes, starring Kate Winslet and Leonardo Di Caprio. It supposedly related to the book we are currently studying: A Doll's House by Henrik Ibsen. I recommend you to not read any further if you don't want to be spoiled.

All I can say is the character April Wheeler(Kate Winslet) was a naive, adventurous part-time actress who yearned for something out of the ordinary while Frank Wheeler(Leonardo Di Caprio) was a power-starved, emotionally stressed businessman. The movie represents the stereotypical lifestyle of an American couple, where people considered them as 'special.' Both have suffered a considerable amount of stress which ultimately lead to the demise of two important peole in Frank's life. Issues of reality V appearance, feminism, patriarchal view of society and lost of identity embodied itself within the movie, leading the movie to a tragic, sickening finish. The couple entered one other's lives by a string of fate, where both desired more than just a typical American in an undisturbed suburb; both yearns for something spetacular - Frank wanted to discover himself while April seeked for an escapade. After a couple of years of marriage, they gave themselve a new destination: Paris. Unfortunately, the two burdened lovebireds never managed to leave the cage, figuratively speaking - American idealisms; or literally speaking - their little white house. The suffocation caused both parents to seek sexual chemistry with someone else besides one another. The predicaments of this couple was expected from both characters, however, it was John Givings (Michael Shannon) who catalysed the process; they had the guns, John provided them with ammunition. When the truth was revealed, all hell broke loose - emotions raged out of control, funitures broken in half, decorations splattered to the ground, the list went on. A game of cat and mouse began between the couple, leading to an expecting, yet tragic, death of April, along with the foetus whom she aborted herself. After they left Revolutionary Road, their existence were prefered to be erased by the people associated with them. They weren't consider as 'special' anymore.

To me, I thought the movie was quite sad and straightfoward, especially with John's lines. Although he was considered as mentally disabled individual, he was the most honest person out of all of them. I would rate it 7 out of 10 =).

For the rest of the day, we ate, we looked, we windowshopped, we bought food. Some chose to stay, while others went back to school. I was one of the people going back to school because of the English tutorial after school. I had a wonderful talk with Mrs Paniku =). Boy, I'm sure going to miss everything, and everyone, when it's all over. It's already the end of week 4 xO!

a whole new world

Just yesterday, Kelly, Titan and I met an ex-Canley student (just last year), John, and boy did his persona change - of course, I mean a good one. He enlightened us with some friendly advice about what's it like after you've graduated high school. He made us realise that we were practically caged with a short heavy chain and a 500 kilo metal ball at the end for most of our lives so far. It's like as though we had an invisible chain connected to us when we were born, though the weight just grew as we got older; you know, responisbilities, privlidges, boundaries. It feels heavy at first, real heavy, but then we get used to it and it actually makes us stronger as we get older. Our first challenge was pre-school (for most), then primary school, then high school, and then uni/tafe/apprenticeship. You'll never realsie how HUGE the world is until you explore it yourself, and that journey usually starts when we finish high school. Others, even earlier. Doesn't that get you excited for life after high school? You know, I felt kind of afraid and excited at the same time when I think about finishing high school but now, my emotions are leaning more on the excited side. Thanks John, you gave us quite an insight. Good luckies with your future! Hope to see you sometime =).

PS. damn you global warming! xO

new entertainment

I don't have much to type about today, but I'll just say a few things. Let me see... Well, yesterday was the COLDEST day in Summer, ever recorded, which was also Valentines Day. How ironic is that? Have I ever said I hated the cold, or that I prefer Summer over Winter any day? Well, I have now >=P. I went to Parramatta with Jason yesterday. We didn't do much. Just bumming around here and there. Now today, My Auntie and Uncle came over to help my mum install the new T.V. that she bought the other day. Thanks to them, the new television works. Unfortunately, I'll have to reinstall the VCR and DVD player into it again. The television's a sony LCD ... =) and that's the extent of my knowledge on television HAHAHA! *cough* I never was, is, (and I highly doubt) will be good with anything relating to technology. Heck! I'm not good with female topics, like perfume and cosmetics, let alone technical activities and objects! It amaze me that Jason knew more about perfume and cosmetics than me LOL! Tonight, we're going to have a family dinner to celebrate my cousins' grandmother's birthday =). I'll end my blogging here. I still need to finish my oral presentation for TAME and study for my coming exams for this week. Wish me lucky, and toodles!

happy valentines day

So today was our school's Valentines Day. Roses sent, messages read, music played, chocolate eaten, bears hugged, photos taken - love was in the air. Alas, the weather begged to differ. Rather a sunny, mellow sky, the sky was as gray as the concrete ground we stood on at school. Oh wells, I guess love overcomes anything that's thrown at it.

My cookies were slightly burn, black and brittle. It wouldn't be your first choice of a valentine snack. However, the flavour and thought overwhelmed the cons, for my friends actually liked it. I wish I could've done a better job and made more cookies. I'll try again next time. Kelly and I had fun designing and making the cookies, so that's okay. We guessed which heart shaped cookie would turn out nicely, and I believe that mine looked more heart-shaped than Kelly's design. Kelly's one was in a heart-shape alright, but there's a crack in the middle. It was two parts meshed together. We assumed that it would mesh together (and it did) but the line was visible, showing where it was separate. Ngeh, we had our fun =).

I would like to have a THANK YOU shout out to Sarina, Joes and Jason for their tokens of friendship =D. I sincerely thank you for those wonderful roses =D. I am honestly grateful. To me, they meant something meaningful; a hidden, sweet secret behind it all. I'd also like to say sorry to Jason for making him wait for me so long at the station. I am sincerely sorry! A 1000 APOLOGIES!!!

I went to a meeting for TAME after school and it was pretty awesome. But honestly, I can't wait for all of this to be over LOL! It sure can be tiring xD! I hope the festival will be big hit this year!

PS. Today's also Black Friday =(. What luck >=/ !

single ladies night

O7O2O9 - Katty's 17th Birthday.

At 8:3OPM, Titan, her mum, her auntie and I went to the Vietnamese festival, which was held at Fairfield City showground. I clearly remember the temperature was 29 degrees before we left my house, and it still was when I came back. The showground was larger than the race court in Warwick Farm, however there wasn't as much 'thriller' rides as usual. The love express and the rainbow were missing, however gravitation and worm (aka. 'mouse trap' according to Titan) filled their places. Overall, it was okay. We met a number of people there, had our fair share of rides, and enjoyed the night as much as we could. The one thing that was bugging the both of us was the amount of soft toys there was. Of course, it was a festival, so there would be a lot of them. But what was irking us was the people who had them. They tend to be girls with boyfriends. It was obvious that the girl would ask for a soft toy, and then the boy would do whatever it cost to get them one, or two. Titan and I just felt bummed out for neither of us had a boyfriend. *hint hint to the title* Oh wells. We didn't have any alcohol, but it sure looked like we did when we left. It was same old thing like every year. I don't think I'll be too eager to go to next year's one LOL!

ChOCOhOLiC

Another week's over. Today the teachers had a strike for 2 hours, so Kelly, Titan, Sarina and I decided to bake a cake at Kelly's house. In the end, we made a chocolate cake filled with choco-chips and chocolate icing. We even had to use some of the chocolate icing as cocoa + essence instead! Talk about unorganised. However, the results were better than the first time we attempted baking things =). Last time was a lemon cake and cookies. The lemon cake looked a bit odd and the cookies were, unfortunately, stuck together (because we used one tray instead of 2). So it was a bit burnt here and there. So it looked a bit yucky. So it was weird looking. So people were hesistant in eating the food. The point was that it tasted good! People did complimented our cookies and cake, so I'm happy =D. Besides, although it's nice to have prettily decorated food, but I think I might be too busy admiring it than eating it, and food is suppose to be eaten. YAY! Katty liked it! According to her, chocolate is her favourite flavour =D! Who can resist chocolate anyways? It gives you endorphines, which supposedly cheers you up =) ... or makes you hyperactive anyways! Thank God it was a success because it took a while for it to cook. Stupid recipe! It said 25 minutes, but it took almost an hour to cook it! Oh wells, it's done. Let bygones be bygones =D.

Kelly, TItan, Sarina and I making our cake!