Simplicity at its finest is NOT what i would depict how my life was, nor would i suggest the continuation of my naivety however, as my life escalates into complexity, i hope to keep my optimistic hindsight on life in order to live. Just live. My personal ordeal is to live with no regrets, as though i will die tomorrow. I follow the path that will lead me to who I want to be: someone who people can confide in, to go to when they are in their deepest hour; that's who I want to be. That is my aim in life. Hobbies and interests make my path more flamboyant and enticing, while my family, pet, and friends are the reasons for my existence; the reasons why i try and improve myself. My lack of self motivation for change may be quite obvious, but it doesn't mean that improvement did not occur. It may be so petite, so small, that it's practically invisible, but i guarantee you, i do try. Indefinitely.



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Sunday, 11 May 2008

Hungry as a Hippo

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY KIT! (Peter, Kit, Paul, Vincent and Louis).

Here it goes. Kit, Adam, Kim, Kylie, Peter, Kim, Lisa, Ray, David, Shain, Paul, Vincent, Louis, Daryll and I all waited the Cabramatta train staion for Chris, w
hich took about an hour. We were going to celebrate Kit's 16th birthday with a dinner. We missed so many trains and we were all starving! Stupid Chris!!! When we finally took the train, Shain and Peter lost Chris's ticket so he was having a panic attack throughout the whole journey to the city. Anyways, Jason and Kim teased our brains with some riddles. They were:
  1. Brothers and sisters I have none, but that man's father is my father's son. Who am I? Answer: Your son. (Don't ask how that works because I don't really get it. Chris was explaining to us the answer but it still doesn't make sense).
  2. There are two doors, one leads to heaven and the other leads to hell. There are 2 guards, one for each door. One of them always tell the truth, the other always lies. If you are allowed one question to ask them, what question would you ask them? Answer: Ask which door goes to hell. (Jason explained this and I kind of understand it - They will point to the same door ... or something like that LOL!).
Jason, Kylie and Kim waiting at the buffet.

Anyways, we saw a performance at the Darling Harbor, then we took about 20 minutes to get to Star City from Townhall (Kylie was walking slower than the others because she was wearing boots and Kim and I joined her), and then another 10 - 20 minutes for tables for 17 people LOL! The place was called 'Garden Buffet' and the whole thing cost $35.90/person - EXPENSIVE xO! Hence, even though we were gradually getting full (as in stomach ache full) we still kept on eating! The food was delicious though, majority of it anyways. The boys were playing with their food LOL! The chocolate icecream that came out looked like how shit comes out (if that even make sense) and the boys were joking around about 2 girls and a cup, then it turned to 3 girls and a cup and all those disgusting jokes LOL! Peter had 5 plates! And Kim (Lisa's friend) ate about 4 plates, but not completely finished for each one. WOW! I only had 3 plates, but the food's so less that it looks more like 2 plates. Overall, it was fun. We also had to eat quickly because the place was going to close at 10:30PM.

Titanic: Ray & Daryll ROFLMAOS!!!

Lisa and Shain posing =).

We finished our food and hanged around outside the place, especially on that fake boat. It was photo time =D! We also when to the playground near the harbor and Ray got stuck on those rope thingies. Chris 'demanded' me to get on by repeatedly screaming in my ear. I finally did. The aftermaths? I fell over and got a bruise from the trip. STUPID CHRIS! Kit, Paul, and Louis were doing cool stunts while Daryll and Ray 'attempted' to do stunts LOL! We walked here and there, around the harbor, and then we had to quicken our speed because we didn't want to miss out the last train of the day. We saw a really cool looking car and looks a bit like a limo, except it was bigger. We waited for another 30 minutes or so before our train came. Ray were pranking people and pretending to be their parents LOL! Peter and David got tricked xD! We were all joking and laughing so loud on the train (hope we didn't disturb the other passengers xO!) and when we came back to Cabramatta, it was about 1 something AM! It was so tiring but it was really fun! My last words? HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY KIT =D!!!

Paul and Kit doing a cool stunt!

Daryll's attempt, with Shain's and Ray's help LOL!

Kit and I (Peter's behind us).

Ray, Daryll, Kim and Kylie on the way back.

PS.HAPPY MOTHERS DAY EVERYONE =D !!! Note to self: make a card for mummy and hurry up and finish that scarf xO!

Saturday, 10 May 2008

being ambitious =)

Yesterday, after school was fun. I joined Kim, with her photography, and Annie and Peter, as her models, and assisted her in the process. I actually told my mum I was going to Linh's house today but she had tutor and I didn't know that. Seeing that I had spare time, I asked if I could join them and I did. We took pictures around the school and at a park between the school and the station. It was kind of awkward at first with the teachers roaming around and having single shots but everything just fell into place in the end. We were about to trespass into this really ancient, attractive and quiet messy house. Although it was quite obvious that the place wasn't used in years due to the overgrown plants and the debris around the area, though Kim thought it was quite a lovely place to take photos. Annie and Peter were great models and it was okay that they weren't 'professional' because Kim's theme was nature, friendship and happiness. Kim's creativity was blanking out at times, but when she does hit the jackpot her photos were amazing, just amazing. It can be quite tiring but it was worth it in the end! HAHAHA! Kim said she was going to shout us cakes ROFLS! Annie and I left for the library, to wait for her dad, while Kim and Peter walked the over way at Cabramatta. It was nice talking to Annie alone, it's been ages since the last time I've talked to her. We saw Mitchell and his mother, going to the library and back, and we also saw Aaron, who just came back from Parramatta for buying his mother a present for Mothers Day. I feel kind of bad because this year I won't be able to buy my mum anything but I'm in the process of making her a scarf. I'm planning to make it up to her on her birthday. I think I will make a hand-made card for my mum, she likes those type of things - things made from the heart =).

Anyways, below are some of my favourites from Kim's photography:
  • Annie + a clover.
  • Peter contemplating.
  • Annie + Peter = Friendship.
  • The future is temperamental.
  • Last, but not least - Annie + Me + Peter = all in this together =).
PS. Bich finally came back to school. Although her face still looks a bit swollen, she's okay. YAY =DD!
PSS. Peter should seriously be a model, or have some part time job in modeling - he's really good =).

Wednesday, 7 May 2008

seeing something invisible . . .

O1O5O8 - Kit's 16th Birthday.
O3O5O8 - Linda C.'s 16th Birthday.
O5O5O8 - Nguyensa's 15th Birthday.
O7O5O8 - Antony's 16th Birthday.

Ghosts. It's like a new window has opened up to me on the concepts of ghosts. I used to think only of the negative issues about ghosts. I knew the basics - spiritual wondering souls waiting to pass over, or have unfinished business and waiting for it to end so they can be finally rest in peace. The media can have such a huge impact on people, not only about ghosts but other things as well. I've always thought I wasn't that easily persuaded by the media, but I guess I'm not an exception to it. Of course, I still believe in ghosts (along with the other 20% of the world's population) but I'm not as afraid of them anymore and I'm glad. I'm glad that I don't see them in that light anymore. I was so engrossed in the groundless statements and unbelievable facts about them that I completely forgot about the actual existence of ghosts. They are souls, they still have emotions, they still have unreachable goals, they still reminiscent about their past. Instead of helping them rest in peace, I'm was being totally and utterly afraid of them. How selfish of me; I'm ashamed of myself. It was the 'discussion' I had with Jerry which finally slapped me awake from my unnecessary nightmare. Seeing that he is an intellectual and promising adult, while I'm just a stubborn, 'naive' little girl he explained to me things that no other people had actually told me about. Of course they told me there's no such things as ghosts and things like that, but they had no reassurance, no reasonable explanation for that. Of course, overall he didn't really change the fact that ghosts do OR do not exist. However, he did help me see another perspective, the 'adults' perspective. The sentence, he said, that made me not as afraid of ghosts anymore is 'even if there are ghosts, the chances of you meeting a ghost is like one to a billion, so whats the point being afraid of something that's not really going to happen...' or something along the lines. Our perspectives disagrees with each other but his is more logical, realistic, compared to mine. He made me feel like a child; a silly, stubborn little child. And here I was, thinking I was becoming more mature. It was nothing. I am becoming more mature, but not in the sense of actually seeing the real world. I wont deny it, I still have feelings i need to feel, knowledge to learn, experiences to go through, memories to remember. I'm still young. Overall, I'm a teenager, an adolescent, a child. I talked with Jeffrey and Nathan. Both had similar, yet different opinions at the same time. Jeffrey had a close relative encountering with ghosts, while Nathan is Buddhist, and had explained his point of view in a religious perspective. Both made me feel even safer and much better about ghosts. Nathan made ghosts seem so interesting to learn about. Although, I wouldn't mind learning about them, I don't think I'm ready to get too in depth with the ghost topic. I began to understand more about 'ghosts full of vengeance' after I've watched 'Saw 2' because all the people that had to suffer were people that had committed crimes or did bad deeds. I've always believed in karma, so I always think that hopefully I wouldn't suffer since I don't think I've actually did anything THAT bad. So now, instead of thinking about the liquidized illusions of my own wild imaginations, I'll be thinking about the positive things about ghosts. Nathan said that if a person is good enough (as in a good person in general) then ghosts will follow them, and learn from them, as well as protecting them. I find that very interesting so it would be a nice notion to think that there's a ghost protecting me and learning from me =). If possible, it would be nice to learn from them too.

PS. Bich has been away for a couple of days now due to an allergic reaction with her cream. Because she had never been away before, let a lone this many days consecutively, we were worried about it. Lisa L. seemed to be selfish when Bich was away. She was thinking about herself and how she would hurt Bich for leaving her like that. Titan and I thought she really was being selfish and slack to Bich, but now ... I finally realised it's just Lisa's way of showing her affections and care towards Bich. Afterall, they have been close friends for quite a while in high school. So I apologise to Lisa for judging her just like that. I should've known better. Anyways, I hope Bich will get better soon =).