3 years and 120 hours later

I FINALLY GOT MY RED Ps =D !!!

Yep, last Thursday, the 21st of July, I finally did my driving test for my red Ps and I passed =D. Besides the couple of mistakes that I made during the test, the fact that it was raining and a school day and I was extremely nervous made me think I would fail the test. I know most of my friends got it on the first go, but some people said that the testers now were more strict on younger drivers and that they usually fail them on their first go. But I was determined to pass the test! I even made small talk with my tester to make it less awkward and to make it seem I'm not that nervous. And guess what? All my hard work paid off =D.

After 3 years and 120 legit driving hours, I'm officially a red P-plater now, no longer an L-plater =D. Look out world, another red P-plater on the loose, so you better get off the road quick! No, I jest. I mean, I can't be that bad if I can do a reverse parking in one go, right? I mean, mum continuously said how lucky I was to get my Ps and to do so well, but I would've need skills as well as luck in order to pass my driving test right? Yeah, I guess I was pretty lucky =) I had a middle-aged man as my tester and fortunately, he didn't see some of my mistakes. You know how I knew? because he didn't write those mistakes down =). Then again... I don't really know how to read my test paper =S all I know was that I scored 95+ lol.            

Also, when I was waiting for my test, I met another girl who was also doing the test the same time I was. Like me, she didn't live that area but just heard that they were easier testers, she's also in 2nd year of uni, she's from university of Sydney and we both have a mutual friend =D. What a small world, aye? Unfortunately, she didn't pass because of one mistake =(. Well, I wish her luck on her next test though =).

Though, even though I did finally get my Ps, my mum's still reluctant on letting me drive. Seriously, what's the point of getting my license if I can't drive myself home, drive my friends home or get to places easier *sigh*. Okay, because I'm under the age of 25 years, it's $1600 insurance if I crash into another car. But seriously! She really needs to have more faith in me. I feel like I just wasted 3 years of my life. Can't believe I can be so happy one day, and so sad the next. I feel like I'm bipolar =.=. 

two down, none to go =)

NO MORE EXAMS!!! Well, for this semester anyways =). 

I had an exam in the morning, which was Biological Aspects of Ageing, which wasn't too bad. I would like to thank the nice girl and librarian who directed me to the building =). I was seriously lost =S. So before the exam, I met Lisa, Cathleen and Carly again. Lisa actually waved to me in the library when I was asking for directions to T block but because she wasn't wearing her glasses and her hair looked different, I couldn't recognise her. So I waved back, but in an awkward way and pointed to the door to indicate I was leaving. When I was alone I was wondering who that person was and was hoping that maybe the girl mistook me for someone else instead. When I saw them outside the exam room, Lisa was jokingly saying how I don't know her and realised it was her that waved to me. My apologies to Lisa xD. I was happy to see them again since it's been a semester since I last saw them =). They were doing the same exam as me =). 

Anyways, I tried to stick with my routine of staying until the end of the exam duration as some sort of hope that I'll be more likely to have better marks that way, but after it strike 11AM, I decided to leave. I waited for about 15 - 20 minutes already after all. My next exam was Health Informatics. I felt like I made up most of the answers up because I really didn't know much. I studied the lectures, read some of the recommended readings and read the tutorial work, but still I couldn't grasp the objectives of the subject properly. Hence, increase of nonsense occurred in my answers. Oh wells, the point was I finished my exams xD !!! 

We are going to celebrate it officially tomorrow, but Paz, MG and I decided to do something together as a mini celebration for us finishing our exams together at the same time. Since we all lived in different places and we didn't have myMulti tickets, we decided to head to Lidcombe's RSL club, Dooley's, for dinner. After dinner, we met an old couple that Paz knew and we talked for a while. I wish we were sitting down instead to have a bit more comfort while listening to them lol. We were standing because we were in the middle of going to the toilets when we met them while they were at a table eating. They told some pretty interesting stories that was pretty much all over the place hahaha. Apparently, they were married for about 51 years xO !!! I envy them =) We asked for advice and the secret to their success in marriage was open discussions on everything and good planning for the future =). I shall take that advice on board and hope for the best =).

After talking, and the trip to the lady's room, we went to the game's room and played air hockey =D. The puck kept on getting stuck on one side because someone was stupid enough to use those cardboard glass stoppers (or whatever they're called) as a replacement and got it stuck inside the whole. Majority of the time, I was the one who had to try to get it out again *sigh*. It was pretty funny to watch each other play and overact when losing xD. I guess I was especially loud hahaha! MG was really funny =D she did so many funny things that was cheating that she didn't know LOL! And she played so hard that she accidentally threw her mallet across the floor! We were so surprised that we didn't realise when the puck went into the goal! We had to leave after 2 games because a family was waiting to play after us. I felt a bit bad for taking so long xD.

We were about to leave when we passed the pool table room. We got intrigued and went in. I asked if we need to pay for it but we don't, so we just played =D. We all sucked... but Paz seemed to be the most skilled out of the three of us =). While we were playing, an employee came in and asked us if we were eighteen and we said yes. I guess he still didn't believe us because he asked us for our ID hahaha. I guess we looked like kids since we were short girls and every other table were filled with tall young looking adults. It took a while before we all got the balls in and at the end, we each consecutively got a ball in and as Paz suggested, "it was an epic ending!" To me, it was quite a surprise but I don't know if I'd call it epic, but to her it was definitely epic =). I guess it was pretty awesome =). I think us three girls have some sort of fate between us all =) just because of all the things we experienced since we started university and knew each other =).

We all went home after that. For me, I had a D'n'M with mum in the car and at home. We didn't have one for a long time and this one kind of helped cleared some misunderstandings that occurred in the last couple of days. I'm glad mum's feeling okay now =). My apologies for making her sad in the first place (it wasn't intentional!).

Exam Fever Again

O1O611 - Maxine's 19th Birthday. 
O4O611 - Edim's 19th Birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDIM =).

 GOOD LUCKIES FOR THE UPCOMING EXAMS EVERYONE =).

Because of the assessments all due in the second half of the first semester, I haven't been going out much and hence, there wasn't much to blog about. With the up coming exams, the exams itself AND my clinical placement period, I don't think I'll be going out much either so much apologies for the lack of blog posts lately =). Well, I'm sure people are too busy to be reading my blog posts anyways. I just want to say good luck on the upcoming exams and happy holidays everyone =).

RSA + RCG

After 2 weeks, I finally got both my RSA (Responsible Services of Alcohol) and RCG (Responsible Conduct of Gambling) at the Coffee School near Central station. Kelly also got her 2 certificates there; she said that it was the cheapest place she could find. All together, I paid $100 for it =) hopefully I'll be able to find a job easier, and hopefully I'll be able to work at an RSL club >.

It took 2 weeks because at first I only wanted to do the RSA but then I made a friend there and she said in order to work at an RSL club I need the RCG as well, and went I went home to book it for the next day it was full, so i had to wait for another week. 

I had a funny teach for my RSG; Mark Almond. He told us stories about all the jobs and funny incidents that he's been through, so it wasn't so bad. For RCG, I had Greg White. He wasn't as funny as Mark, but he tried to make the most of it, and he taught us quicker than Mark did; we finished an hour earlier. I almost thought I wasn't going to pass the test because the questions were worded weirdly and all, so I received quite a lot of help from the girl sitting next to me. I was also having trouble staying awake in class because I only had 3 hours of sleep the night before. It was also because it was raining; rain tend to make me sleepy. Who wouldn't be. 

Anyways, it was sunny again by the time I took the train. It became cloudy again when I reached my stop *sigh*. I really don't like the weather =.=. Autumn's all over the place.

my first DIY pancakes

Yes, you've read it right. I've never made pancakes before until yesterday afternoon. After a job interview at McDonalds at Stockland, Prairiewood, Linh and I did a bit of shopping around. Maybe I shouldn't have since I was suppose to be saving up money for the holidays. I bought quite a few summer clothes that I plan on wearing to Malaysia =). Anyways, big thanks to Linh for driving me there and for lending me money for my shopping. To repay her, I treated her to lunch, which she didn't end up finishing *sigh*. Then I finished the rest for her >.> ... couldn't help it since I didn't have breakfast or lunch yet.

After buying pancake mixture, we headed off to Anthony's house seeing that he lived so close to Stockland. I made my first pancakes at his house yay!!! It may not look edible, but it was! I burnt a couple, but I end up eating them anyways, so the other two didn't have to suffer my horrible cooking =P. Anthony attempted flipping his pancakes; he failed the first time but succeed the second time. After pancakes, we just watched a couple episodes of various animes and played on his brother's piano =).

Around 4:30PM, we went back to Linh's house to wait for the government inspection, but they already came. So I just ended chatting to Linh and My Linh for a couple of hours before Linh drove me home. Linh's mum included dinner for me as well but unfortunately, I couldn't eat it because I was too full from earlier =( I feel bad, I'm sorry! Up until yesterday, I always finish the meals that Linh's mum made for me. Sometimes, I do wish I grew another stomach =S I did manage to eat some mangoes though. How? Maybe either because it was mangoes or because it wasn't a meal. Either way, the mangoes were delicious =D. After Linh drove me home, I paid her back for the clothes and also included a deposit for paintball. YAY! Paintball =D! I know I said that I prefer laser tag over paintball, but it's been so long since I've been to one. This will be my second time going =). Hopefully, I won't spill all my ammunition before I finish my game, like last time =S.


Anyways, I don't think I'll be updating again for the next two weeks seeing that I'm on STUVAC right now, and next week I'll be having my exams. Wish me luck though =).

Pre-Exam Post

O1O61O - Maxine's 18th & Sarah's 18th Birthdays.

O3O61O - Cassie's 16th Birthday.

12O61O - Rowena's 18th Birthday.

Hey people, just want to apologise for my lack of blogs and a heads up that I won't be blogging for while due to my exams. I would also like to apologise to Cassie for not being able to make it to her 16th birthday party =( but I hope she has a great time =). So good luck to those who's about to do their exams as well as though who have already started. Wish me luck for my exams too =). Anyways, that's it for now. Hope to update as soon as possible =).

burdens off my shoulders

Finally, the 2OO9 A.T.A.R results is released today at 9AM. Congratulations to many people who did really well, and good luckies to those who still haven't seen theirs yet. As for me, I think I did well =D because I got over 80%. Although it is not my ideal aim, but I'm already really thankful that I actually got this mark. Unfortunately, our school did not make it to the top 100 schools, but overall I believe our school did well (according to Mr. Donohue anyways =D). The long wait is finally over; the burdens lifted from our shoulders. For those who are coming tomorrow for the free school BBQ lunch, I'll see you later; for those who aren't coming, I bid you farewell and good luckies with your lives =). May you find happiness in the end.

48 hours paranoia

Wednesday 16th December, 2OO9 - HSC RESULTS (online - 6AM)

Thursday 17th December, 2OO9 - ATAR (online - 9AM)

Friday 18th December, 2OO9 - ATAR + HSC RESULTS (mail)

breakfast @ city

Seeing that it was the first day of my holidays, after finishing all my exams and all, you'd think I would take my time sleeping in right? *sigh* Guess not. I went to the city with Cindy, Vicky and Michael to eat Pancakes On The Rocks at Circular Quay at about 7 or 8 in the morning hahaha. It was worth it though =D The pancakes were OH SO GOOD xD Cindy and Vicky even made a heart out of Cindy's blueberry pancake =D. In my opinion, I would've just ate it all up, but I guess they were experiencing an artistic moment =). The breakfast was kind of like a farewell outing for Michael since he was going to Hong Kong that same afternoon. Take care Michael =D and have heaps of fun!

AMAZINGLY ENOUGH Vicky actually arrived earlier than Cindy and I HAHAHA! It's karma - she's usually the one who's tardy, now it's her turn to have a taste of waiting for other people LOL! Another thingy that that happened was when we were on the way to the city, Cindy was eating Asian waffles, and she attempted a 'waffle-lmao' joke. Unfortunately, in the process, she accidentally dropped her piece of waffles ROFLMAOS! How adorable xD!

We went walking around afterward and were captivated by the process of making lollies at this shop called Sticky xD! It was so cool! You just can't take your eyes off of it =D. We shall go and stay there longer next time. We had to leave early because Cindy still had her last exam, extension History. Yes, I do wonder why she was out in the morning too, right before her exam. Then again, it was okay since it was an afternoon exam =). Hopefully she did well!

PS. Having 3 people running through the ticket booth is fun xD.
PSS. Cindy's long hair is fun to play with =).

HONEY, I'M HOME ;)

1O1OO9 - Sarina's 18th Birthday.
221OO9 - Lisa G.'s 18th Birthday.

What else is there to say? The title says it all =D! Okay, so I haven't been studying my ASS off 24/7 non-stop, but I did study, and i DID try my best. Now that it's all over, let's not think about it anymore xD! I would like to list down the things that happened during my study and exam period, just to remind myself in the future years for a good laugh. Here it goes:

1. Been streaming my ASS off xO LOL - now prefer k-pop over other language and genres (a phase that may eventually end lol). I also realised the huge amount of talented musicians and comedians out there xO! Good on you guys!
   
2. Went to the State Library for the first time. Couldn't even work for half the time I was there for I was too fascinated and intrigued by the architecture. I'm planning to go there again for a tour =) Vicky did give me one, but excluding the historical context =P.
3. Met Nathan C., someone I haven't seen in a VERY long time and is planning to meet up with again, at the State Library YAY!!!
   
4. Met Jessica P. at my own library and State Library, the least likely places that I thought I would see her.
5. Went to a NOODLE MARKET at night, with Vicky, Minhky, Nathan and his friend =). One word: AWESOME! They were also giving out ferero rocher for free! YAY! The others took HEAPS and gave me some xD how nice! Pepper Lunch was our dinner, then an underground arcade for entertainment before we headed homes. HAHAHAHA Minhky and Nathan kept on tickling Vicky xD Poor girl. I couldn't do much with my petite size xO grrr!
6. Thank you to Linh and My Linh for planning to celebrate my graduation with me, but unfortunately I was already on my way to the formal xO! I feel so appreciated =D!
   
7. Had a day of puns with Vicky and Eric ... LOL! (mathsecre - Eric = massacre ; seasick - Vicky = seesaw).
   
8. I DYED MY HAIR! Yes I did, as a way of celebrating the end of my exams. Well it's supposed to be honey, light brown but it turned out to be dark brown. It's okay since it was the first time I dyed my hair. Hopefully, the next time I do dye my hair it'll turn out more like the colour I want xD. Thank you Vicky for helping me xD! I feel like I owe you even more now LOL! Oh, and we also dyed my dog, Toby's, tail ROFLS! It won't happen again, so don't worry =).
   
9. Kelly persuaded me for just over more than half an hour to swap back our password. I don't know why I yielded to her =.='. I am going to feel so bad if she stuffs up her exam xO!
   

To those who still have their HSC exams left, GOOD LUCKIES !!! Those who have finished, CONGRATULATIONS and PARTY DAMN HARD NOW !!! Those who are going overseas, TAKE GOOD CARE and HAVE FUN !!!

temporarily gone

My dear friends,

GOOD LUCKIES for the HSC!

Thanks to Kelly, she has changed my password for both facebook and msn, and I for hers. I am sincerely sorry that I cannot converse with you guys, but this is for the greater good. This will be the last time of me logging onto my computer. Hence, this will be my last blog entry, for now, because it will be on hiatus due to my studies =). I'll be on again after the 5th of November, when I finish my last HSC exam. If you were to ever see me online on msn, please do not speak to me because that will NOT be me. My old msn signs me in automatically and unfortunately, since I supposedly deleted the program, I don't know where exactly can I sign off it from. My dear mum will be using the computer for her studies too, so do not assume that it is I who is on the computer, even if I am 'online' on msn. That is all. Farewell everyone!

Sincerely yours,
Fiona Woo =).

insomnia

28O7O9 - Mum's & Cindy Y.'s 17th Birthdays.
29O7O9 - Tim Tim's 18th Birthday.
3OO7O9 - Jessica P.'s 18th Birthday.

Today is just an update of my current situation. Since school started, many of my fellow classmates would agree that we are all deprived from sleep due to our assessments and school, in general. Yes, it's almost as if we're on the path to insomnia even though it's only been 4 days of school. What are we going do for the rest of the term? Trials, assessments, picnic, formal, HSC. The list goes on and on! Hence, I'm not sure if I'll be able to blog as much as I used to. I'll continue to blog, but there will just be a long time difference between them. So here's an update on what's been happening ever since school's started again:

• CONGRATULATIONS to Miss Panteli for giving birth already and lucky for her, she only needed to suffer 4 hours of labor. Athena was brought into the world on 2OO7O9, 8:55PM =). Both are well and healthy, resting at home. I hope I can visit them soon xD.
• Handed my English Assessment (I can't believe it was due on the first week *sigh*).
• Went to the drama showcase and watched the drama students perform their individual and group works. It was a practice for their HSC. We cheered, we laughed, we blanked out but most of all, we were surprised by the talents of these individuals have in acting. GOOD LUCKIES for your HSC guys! I'm sure you'll do well, you still have time to improve =D.
• Instead of cooking mum dinner, I half shouted her out to dinner ^__^'. It's nice to go out to eat once in a while on occasions like these =).

PS. I just realised that the guy who plays Edward Cullen, from Twilight, is the same guy who played Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter - Robert Pattinson.

you're the DARE, i'm the DEVIL

26O3O9 - Kim's 17th Birthday.
31O3O9 - Annie P.'s 18th Birthday.
O1O4O9 - Ricardo's 17th Birthday.

You know what's over? MY BLOODY HALF YEARLIES! That's right, those wretched tests are over! WOOT WOOT! Now I'll have to play the waiting game =D. Anyways, Titan, Kelly, Sarina, Adam, Vinh, Vincent and I went to celebrate for it =D. Well, first I saw Wendy to give her money for the 'Looze Control' tickets ... again T_T. My fault for losing the first pair in the first place ... *cigh* SORRY WENDY!

We saw Cathleen, who was waiting for Katty to Biology tutor, Peter and this other girl from our school who was going to a small youth concert where Susan, year 11, is performing. WOW! GOOD LUCKIES! How cool is that? That's amazing! Good for her! =D

Anyways, Titan, Kelly, Sarina and I went to Woolworths, and we met the others. Had icecream, ate at a Vietnamess restaurant, Titan got sushi, looked in the video shop next door and headed to the park while shoving 'Bring It On' pamphlets to random people and cars =D. I MANAGED TO HAND ALL MINE OUT MWAHAHAHA! Anyways, I saw Andy, Diana and Kenny, who I haven't seen in a very VERY long time, so I was happy YAY! I was a bit freaked out to approach the basketballers though HAHAHA, sports people ... just intimidates me sometimes .. don't ask why, because I don't really know why myself =P. Oh yeah, and we were goofing around the park's memorial pond area, where Kelly took pictures of us goofing. Unfortunately, her camera died quite quickly afterwards. Oh wells xP.

The park. This was where the all the excitemented started. First, we played spin and race, then we play knots, and finally, the ultimate game: Truth Or Dare (or double dar or torture)! Adam and I are at war with each other! ROFLS! I WILL defeat him, mark my words! Anyways, Some funny ones were Adam dunking his head in the park's memorial pond thing, us having a grass fight (which is originally between Sarina and Vinh - Sarina won! WOOT WOOT!), our super wedgy for Kelly, Titan and Sarina nipple-crippling Adam and Me gurgling the alphabet with the park's memorial pond thing's water (which reminds me that I have to use Listerine later =.=). *sigh* I'm proud to say that I contributed some of my outrageous thoughts for various sections of the game and I do believe it's safe to say that in regards to sentencing their tasks, they fear me ... MWAHAHAHA!

Titan and I stayed long at the park, and played a bit with some children, before going to her house and playing maple. YES! I finally got the hair that I wanted and Titan's so sweet to help me with my MS character. I owe her $10 now for the nx cash she gave me on MS. Thanks Titan!

Wow, what a day to spend after your exams =D. I'm glad.

PS. LISTEN TO TAYLOR SWIFT - TEARDROPS ON MY GUITAR. It's like one of the saddest songs I've ever heard! =D
PSS. I do believe I've found myself a dare-devil buddy: Adam. =)

a not so funny April's Fool

In fact, it was quite the opposite of April's fool, weather wise anyways. Gloomy, depressing, raining weather. Not exactly the ideal atmosphere for a day to prank someone... or is it? I never really try going all hard on April's Fool. I'd like to try one day... or year lols =). I have a feeling that it's going to rain at the festival. *sigh* Another wet pleasure of fun. Joy. Excuse my sarcasm. Actually, I should be happy that I only have 2 more exams to do before I finish my half yearlies. *sigh* then again, exams never make anyone happy in the first place. I'd like to say, I'm glad that Patrick's our school captain. He's just such a nice, funny and helpful guy to hang around with! Oh yeah, thanks Patrick for today =D! I also enjoyed my time alone with Sarina today - for the first time too, actually. I may not be having a funny April's Fool, but I sure feel like a fool. Don't ask *sigh*. I'd like to say to that person, IT'S APRIL'S FOOL! FORGET EVERYTHING I'VE JUST SAID! But I know they aren't stupid enough to fall for something like that. Ngeh.

feels familiar

The short breaths; the pounding of your heart against your ribcage; your brain throb erratically in minute time frames. Even after all the practices, the endless late nights of studying and the continuous writing of notes, your adrenaline still rushes through you, as though you're set on fire. The anxiety and trepidation pushes you to the edge of your sanity, but once the hand starts moving, your mind starts racing. Racing to the finish line, eager to to explode the page with information. The exhilaration to accomplish yet another task, to be able to cross it out from your to-do list, simply overwhelms you when it's finally over - whether in a positive or negative aspect. You can either let it go - what's done is done, que sera sera - or scream your lungs out for your incompetence to finish, or answer properly, the exam.

My hindsight tend to be leaning on the pessimistic perception of things, however I am incapable of doing anything else now. What's left to do is to excel in the rest. Besides studying, I can only hope. Just hope.

I do believe in karma, but at times I think I'm not doing enough good because so far, not much good is coming my way. I guess there's no point in blaming it on someone else *looks up* I'll just have to become a better person and prepare myself for the worst next time. Ironically, time is something I seem to lack, for I only have a couple of terms left before I sit for the hardest and most crucial test of my life. Joy.

Enlightened.

Reading Wendy's blogs made me realised how utterly incompetent I am. I feel like I've brought shame to those who do 3U English. Here I am, writing in the perception of a 7-year-old while Wendy, a 10th grader, expresses her emotions with such articulate descriptions and heightening emotions. Look at me. I write like I have no care in the world! Ridiculous. Absolutely ridiculous! Initially, I was suffering from a writer's block for my english assessment but now, my mind just flew out of the window, while laughing at my lack of intelligence with such a vindictive manner. Screw you!

OVER!

16O9O8 - Bich's 17th Birthday.

Boy am I happy that the prelims are over! Boy, it was just last week that everything was over... technically it was just last week... BUT THAT"S NOT THE POINT! I'm so happy that I don't have to worry that much anymore! I can finally sleep well without worrying about having a test in just a couple of hours, then again, lately it's been so hot that it's not that easy to sleep anyways.

You know, I can't believe that I went to school last Wednesday, thinking that I had my SLRS 1 unit test! I went there and all i saw was Extension Maths people there! I was wondering... where on EARTH were all the SLRS people went to! Then people started telling me that there wasn't a 1 unit SLRS exam! DAMN! Sarina accompanied me to Mr. Donohue to ask about it, and damn, I stand corrected. Then we went to the PE room in hope of asking Miss De-Carli herself, but she wasn't there, so Miss Vallak told me about it instead. Darn! I thought the only thing changed was chemistry, from Bich's information anyways. Okay, even if there was a test (when there isn't), it would've been at 12:30PM so I went to for no reason at all! I couldn't be bothered to go home again because the weather was kind of windy, so I stayed at school and watch Mitchell and Linda study for Modern History. Later on, I went walking to the station with Jenny, so it wasn't so lonely. I saw Brenda and Jessica G. at Cabramatta station. Both of them were preoccupied with something. Yes, I took the bus home and fell asleep straight away!

Okay, my exams were ... managable I guess? I managed to finished all the questions for the majority of my exams, so that's okay. The whole week passed so fast, and yet so slow. I don't know how to explain it but it's just at times you'd think the time had pass so quick, but at other times, you'd wish the time would slow down a bit more. Anyways, Friday! It was our very last day of exams. I had Biology and Extension English on the same day and neither of them had I seriously planned my exams out, if you know what I mean. BUT! I did study. Unlike my other exams, I really attempted studying, I really tried hard and study so I think I'll be okay what the marks would come out as. You know, I don't think Mr. Ward took it seriously with our test because most of us finished like about half an hour early and was just going over answers or doodling around. I attempted to entertain Cathleen and Lisa L. but they weren't impress. So much for my clown career... LOL! Extension English was next, and that was just ... yuck!

YAY! All exams finished! It's finally over! Everyone quickly grabbed their bags and went outside cheering and screaming and all pleased that it's finally over. We all just stood around for a bit before we left. I accidentally ripped my skirt (thank God it was on the sem) while I jumped over the fence *coughcough.* Titan, Sarina, Vincent and I waited for Kelly just outside the school area. We took turns playing with Titan's bike and I almost fell backwards on it when I attempted to ride uphill! Anyways, we walked and walked and blah blah blah. Let's just skip everything else and talk about the more exciting things. We met up with Katty; Titan had her first statement; Kelly, Sarina, Vincent and I went shopping for ingredients to cook at Titan's home, with Kelly and Vincent buying it all (Kelly paid the most xO!); as amateurs, we helped each other cook the food, Vincent did the frying and soup; we ate, content and satisfied; made fruit salad with vanilla icecream. The end.

So that's how we celebrated the finish of ours exams! I can't believe it but camp is just tomorrow! WOOT WOOT! =)

PS. Bich's birthday was on the same day as our 2 unit maths exam! Oh dear O_o'. Don't you just hate it when you have an exam on your birthday? However, I'm sure Bich will have really good marks for it! It was her birthday afterall! =)

PRELIMS ALERT

O6O9O8 - Caca's 16th BIrthday.
12O9O8 - Boran's 17th Birthday.

LOLOL! I'm just saying it out loud here =.=. Wells, at least I've done one right ... out of seven =.=

ANYWAYS! GOOD LUCKIES EVERYONE! I don't know if I should wish them to not pass since there's a saying that goes:

"if you fail prelims, you'll pass for your hsc."

Okay I don't know if it's true or not, so I'll just say I hope you pass for BOTH! =) OH! And people say not to study for the test 1/2 hour before the test, then agains, our year adviser, Mr. Donohue, said to not study at all on the day. Wells, I'm trying not to panic like I did before so *relax relax relax* !!! Let's all do stretches, meditate, listen to music, run around, anything that'll calm yourself before the test!!!

a flat world

First off, I'd like to say how much I appreciated that my friends cared about me when I went missing, and how they expressed their worries to me. Thank you for caring about me. I guess that answers my question from my previous blog.

Yes, I failed my maths exam, and yes I was utterly crushed. Yes, I went to the school councilor for the rest of the day and yes, I was afraid of going to school today. I did not tell my mum this because I didn't want to upset her, but I guess I already did when I didn't go to school today. I was afraid of having another break down when I get my results back from Chemistry. I was afraid I would start thinking about negative things again. It's a crazy thing and I know that I shouldn't think about it. But my once round world, became flat. Yes, I admit that I wasn't serious with my study before. I guess I was way too focus to stop myself getting more depressed by doing things that I like that I didn't realise how close the future was getting. And when I finally realise it, and is willing to put more effort, and my absolute best, things began crashing down again. For example, my tutor. When I finally found peace while doing maths at tutor, after issues have revealed itself, he decided that it just wasn't worth it for both of us that I continue going to tutor. Hence, I got expelled. I talked to Kelly about it and she told me how he thought of expelling me earlier. Now, I don't know if he wanted to expel me after the talk we had, or before it. I knew he wanted to expel me before our little talk, but afterwards I don't know. First, I understood him to let me go, because I wasn't the best of students. Then, I got angry for letting me go at the time I needed him the most, then I slowly forgave him again because there's no use of being angry at him. It doesn't rewind back time, nor does it do any good to me. I don't know what exactly should I do anymore. Every time I think about doing my best, I think how I did my best before but failed. It's like I fear of school now. I feel like I'm a failure, a disappointment to my mother, after all she done for me. No, she isn't my hero. No, she isn't someone I respect. But yes, she is someone I really care and love. I feel like I'm just another somebody on this planet.

I remember, I asked a friend what kind of person they want to me. One said a successful person, one said an inspiration and another said an unforgettable person. My answer to that question is a reliable person who people can confide in, or seek help from. My question to myself, will I ever become that type of person? The journey of life - I would define it as the adventure of seeking who you are, or aiming to be who you want to be. This song I'm listening to right now, Because You Love Me, it really touches me. LOL. I laugh dryly. No, I'm not going to suicide, even though thoughts are gradually filling my head with notions. To aim for my goal in life, I won't do that. Life is too short already, is it worth it to die when there' so much things to do. Besides, my mum needs me. She has only me left in her family. Only me. Though... Toby is still there. I don't know. I don't know. I wonder if you'll ever understand a person who feels like they want to suicide, or hurt themselves. I wonder, would you see them as abnormal people, or would you pity them, or would you sympathize with them. For me? No, I wouldn't see them as abnormal people, no I wouldn't pity them. Yes, I would sympathize with them. They aren't abnormal, they are people too, they just seem to think suicide or hurting themselves is the only solution to properly express themselves, or they are trying to erase the pain in their hearts by hurting themselves physically. I wouldn't pity them. Yes, they are damaged people, but they are just people too. They might see it as an insult if you pity them. So hence, I would sympathize with them, for I am suffering from similar feelings.

You know, I hate it how people dress up as Emos just because they think its cool. And yes, I've been there and done that, but now I've learnt my lesson. Gothic and Emo are different. Although, they can be classified in the same category, they aren't the same thing. Gothic are more... darkly artistic in their perspectives, while Emo people are more... negative about their thoughts. It's two different issues we're talking about it. Don't they understand that Emo people dress like that to express themselves physically of how they are feeling inside. They aren't doing it as a fashion. Please, stop insulting the Emos if you're just doing things for fun, or that you think it looks cool. Thank You.

PS. I apologise for the misunderstandings, or the sorrow I've caused for many. I'm sincerely sorry.

Comedy on Stage

O5O7O8 - Eileen's 17th Birthday.
2OO7O8 - Stephanie's 16th Birthday.
21O7O8 - Jessica G.'s 16th Birthday.
28O7O8 - Cindy Y.'s 16th Birthday.
28O7O8 - MY MUM'S BIRTHDAY!

Just yesterday, Linh invited Raymond, Vivian, My Linh, Thanh and I to watch her showcase for Drama, and boy was it HILARIOUS! Everyone was doing such a great job! Of course, after all it was their assessment and HSC piece (they were practicing for it). Yeah, there were some that could've done betters, and others that could've been more expressive, but I believe they have followed the guideline for their group performance or monologue. I realised, yes you can try your hardest and just follow the rules, but sometimes you need to bend he book in order to shine on stage.

Annie and Daphne's monologues were very expressive, and quite contrasting. One was serious, why the other was a joke, no literally, it was a joke LOL! She ended her monologue by 'supposedly' stripping for us! ROFLS! I think Kenny would've done a better job with slapstick humour, like his group performance, than his serious monologue. Linh's one was ... I can't seem to find the right word BUT it blew our minds away xD! Yes, she stumbled on some words, but thank God she has 5 weeks to perfect it for her HSC mark. I believe the best one was the last one, the group performance of Annie, Michael, Kevin and Linh. They were supposedly performers in a group and they were explaining about their past or their future - exaggerated, of course LOL! Linda, Ba Que and Anna's one was pretty funny too. Theirs was set in an office. Sonja one monologue was quite sad. It touched me. I think it's because I kind of feel how the character was feeling - sympathy, I guess. It ended with her about to get raped O_O! Oh dear!

Anyways, Linh drove Vivian, Thanh and I home. Of course she was driving My Linh, they live together ROFLS! Anyways, we did stop at Maccas for some food. I felt bad because I was eating quite a lot of Thanh's fries. SORRY! My mum didn't cook that night because she wasn't feeling so well. She still doesn't feel so well. Oh dear. I hope she'll get better soon.

The Jamie Oliver show disturbed me so much about chicken! I don't think I'll be eating chicken any time soon, so until I get over those gruesome images I'm just going to be eating other meat. It was so awful and they were being so cruel to the baby chicks! I couldn't even finish watching the whole show because it was so upsetting and disturbing! My mum said that they do similar things to other farm animals as well. *sigh* How sad is that?!