The short breaths; the pounding of your heart against your ribcage; your brain throb erratically in minute time frames. Even after all the practices, the endless late nights of studying and the continuous writing of notes, your adrenaline still rushes through you, as though you're set on fire. The anxiety and trepidation pushes you to the edge of your sanity, but once the hand starts moving, your mind starts racing. Racing to the finish line, eager to to explode the page with information. The exhilaration to accomplish yet another task, to be able to cross it out from your to-do list, simply overwhelms you when it's finally over - whether in a positive or negative aspect. You can either let it go - what's done is done, que sera sera - or scream your lungs out for your incompetence to finish, or answer properly, the exam.
My hindsight tend to be leaning on the pessimistic perception of things, however I am incapable of doing anything else now. What's left to do is to excel in the rest. Besides studying, I can only hope. Just hope.
I do believe in karma, but at times I think I'm not doing enough good because so far, not much good is coming my way. I guess there's no point in blaming it on someone else *looks up* I'll just have to become a better person and prepare myself for the worst next time. Ironically, time is something I seem to lack, for I only have a couple of terms left before I sit for the hardest and most crucial test of my life. Joy.
Monday 30 March 2009
Wednesday 25 March 2009
60 seconds of fame
23O3O9 - Julie C.'s 17th Birthday.
Huu, Me, Adrian, Kevin, Wendy and Andrew =D
Yep, everyone has a chance to have their 60 seconds fame somewhere in their life time, celebrities tend to have more than the average person =P. Yes, for once, I'm under the spotlight with Huu, Adrian, Kevin, Wendy and Andrew for promoting the Bring it On festival, which is on the 5th of April, noon - 7PM. Please have a look at this website for the interview we had just last week (mentioned in my previous blog).
I had another workshop yesterday, a radio one. Wendy and I went to Carramar for the workshop and we meet different, interesting people as well as the people that were in charge of the workshop. There's going to be 2 more workshops, and I can't wait to develop my interviewing and presenting skills. Anyways, I should go study now *sigh* LOL!
PS. Jenny, you know you're awesome =). Don't forget that! PSS. I think i should call you GLOFISH now =D. That's actually a real thing too, if people don't know that.
Huu, Me, Adrian, Kevin, Wendy and Andrew =DI had another workshop yesterday, a radio one. Wendy and I went to Carramar for the workshop and we meet different, interesting people as well as the people that were in charge of the workshop. There's going to be 2 more workshops, and I can't wait to develop my interviewing and presenting skills. Anyways, I should go study now *sigh* LOL!
PS. Jenny, you know you're awesome =). Don't forget that! PSS. I think i should call you GLOFISH now =D. That's actually a real thing too, if people don't know that.
Saturday 21 March 2009
freezing the picture
Perspiration cascaded down the side of my face; the heat baring its fangs into my skin, eager for a leathful red mole to grow upon somewhere conspicuous for curious pupils to bear witness of my dawdling and agonizing death. I heard a voice calling out, my body leaped into the sky without a care in the world and then... lights. Flashes of white light flickered past me. Time stood still as I felt a light breeze embrace me. Unfortunately, before I could appreciate its tenderness any longer, the funny tricks of time forced gravity to take place as both my feet touched the grass. I sighed in exasperation, wishing time would stop being so playful.Before I could blame something for my fatigue, the little voice called out: OKAY. It's Over.
Finally, it's over. The photographer finally took a picture worthy enough in his artistic eyes. I wish I could say the same with the two remaining photographers. Another pose. Another photograph. Another moment to freeze in time. It wasn't so bad, at least the others were there. When I mean others, I mean Wendy, Kevin, Huu, Adrian and Andrew. THANK YOU ANDREW for driving me there in the first place, and then back, and then to FCC for that interview Moera wanted with all of us. I guess you're confused about I'm going on about. This is all regarding to the festival.
Anyways, as I was saying, after the promo photoshoot, we all went to our interviews with Moera. Unfortunately, the whole thing is delayed, so instead of leaving at 5:30PM or so, I left at about 6PM, or something. I also need to thank Andrew for shouting me dinner =P. THANK YOU!
Oh, and finally my assessments are over, now it's the half yearlies that I need to worry about. Oh wells. Wish me luck =).
Finally, it's over. The photographer finally took a picture worthy enough in his artistic eyes. I wish I could say the same with the two remaining photographers. Another pose. Another photograph. Another moment to freeze in time. It wasn't so bad, at least the others were there. When I mean others, I mean Wendy, Kevin, Huu, Adrian and Andrew. THANK YOU ANDREW for driving me there in the first place, and then back, and then to FCC for that interview Moera wanted with all of us. I guess you're confused about I'm going on about. This is all regarding to the festival.
Bring It On Festival is on Sunday 5th April, 12PM - 8PM. PLEASE COME! It'll be fun! There's more rides, more compeetitions, animations, films and perfomances to watch. You'll won't want to miss out, so come!
Anyways, as I was saying, after the promo photoshoot, we all went to our interviews with Moera. Unfortunately, the whole thing is delayed, so instead of leaving at 5:30PM or so, I left at about 6PM, or something. I also need to thank Andrew for shouting me dinner =P. THANK YOU!
Oh, and finally my assessments are over, now it's the half yearlies that I need to worry about. Oh wells. Wish me luck =).
Sunday 15 March 2009
dead beat
Yesterday exhausted me out today, though I'm not going to complain. No point in complaining when there's so many things to finish today, e.g. my short story and studying for chemistry. Since I have so many things to do today, I'm just going to type up a brief summary of what happened yesterday.
From 10AM to 4PM, I was at BYC for the Digital Storytelling workshop. As part of the filming group, we finished our previous project and managed to almost finish two other projects as well. This is all helping us promote for the Bring It On Festival, which is on the 5th of April. You know, acting can sure be tiring. I mean for one thing, you have to repeat the same scenes over and over again for safety reasons or just to improve on the scene. But that's okay because we managed to finish it anyways. The Cambodian temple, at the back of BYC, is so beautiful, with its intricate scupltures and exquisite building design. Today, we had something else besides Subway. I prefer the sandwiches from that restuarant, but I miss the Subway cookies. Oh wells, you can't have everything. Tuyet and I had a chance to act on camera, as well as Andrew and Dean. It was pretty funny to act out the situations because we had to do it properly, yet in a werid way, so that we can properly put in the special effects in later on when we place it all together on the computer. It was also our last workshop for Digital Storytelling. I really do like this workshop the most because it was the most exciting one out of all of them, in my opinion.
Tuyet and I with the Cambodian Temple in the background.
I went to Linh's house to have dinner over there. They were having a belated family dinner to celebrate My Linh's 16th birthday. HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY ML! I sure like their family. Big and small; loud and friendly; aggressive and not aggressive (referring to the children). It was funny when we were singing happy birthday to ML because at the end, the children all fought to blow out ML's candles. We told her to light it up agai and blow it. Some still got blown out by the children, but we managed to hold them back for ML to blow the rest of the candles out. I spent most of my evening there eating, playing cards, talking, going on the laptop. Linh's friends came over later (Elvis and the others) and we played cards. Who ever lost had to sing. We played in pairs, since there were an even amount of people. Kenny and I and Kong and Phu both equally lost the game, so we sang the most. Then we played RAYMAN on Linh's wii and it was pretty fun. It's funny to watch the people play the games, because some of them were pretty hard to play. Linh drove me home at about 1:3O AM. Luckily, it didn't wake my mum up. That's about it. I have to go and finish off my school work. Bye bye =].
ML and her birthday cake.
From 10AM to 4PM, I was at BYC for the Digital Storytelling workshop. As part of the filming group, we finished our previous project and managed to almost finish two other projects as well. This is all helping us promote for the Bring It On Festival, which is on the 5th of April. You know, acting can sure be tiring. I mean for one thing, you have to repeat the same scenes over and over again for safety reasons or just to improve on the scene. But that's okay because we managed to finish it anyways. The Cambodian temple, at the back of BYC, is so beautiful, with its intricate scupltures and exquisite building design. Today, we had something else besides Subway. I prefer the sandwiches from that restuarant, but I miss the Subway cookies. Oh wells, you can't have everything. Tuyet and I had a chance to act on camera, as well as Andrew and Dean. It was pretty funny to act out the situations because we had to do it properly, yet in a werid way, so that we can properly put in the special effects in later on when we place it all together on the computer. It was also our last workshop for Digital Storytelling. I really do like this workshop the most because it was the most exciting one out of all of them, in my opinion.
Tuyet and I with the Cambodian Temple in the background.I went to Linh's house to have dinner over there. They were having a belated family dinner to celebrate My Linh's 16th birthday. HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY ML! I sure like their family. Big and small; loud and friendly; aggressive and not aggressive (referring to the children). It was funny when we were singing happy birthday to ML because at the end, the children all fought to blow out ML's candles. We told her to light it up agai and blow it. Some still got blown out by the children, but we managed to hold them back for ML to blow the rest of the candles out. I spent most of my evening there eating, playing cards, talking, going on the laptop. Linh's friends came over later (Elvis and the others) and we played cards. Who ever lost had to sing. We played in pairs, since there were an even amount of people. Kenny and I and Kong and Phu both equally lost the game, so we sang the most. Then we played RAYMAN on Linh's wii and it was pretty fun. It's funny to watch the people play the games, because some of them were pretty hard to play. Linh drove me home at about 1:3O AM. Luckily, it didn't wake my mum up. That's about it. I have to go and finish off my school work. Bye bye =].
ML and her birthday cake.Thursday 12 March 2009
5 years from now
1OO3O9 - My Linh's 16th Birthday.
The sweet substance of vanilla latte slid down my throat as I glanced toward the graying sky. My companion, Katty, questioned me for my thoughts. I smiled in reply.
"I'm just wondering how, in 5 years time, although we'll be looking at the same sky we'll be far apart."
That's right. I told Katty I am afraid of the future; of what tomorrow will bring. Then we had few rhetorical questions about tomorrow and present (reference to the conversation in English class). I feel excited yet scared at the same time. I reminiscent about the few memories I had of my childhood, and then the tears and joy during adolescence. Another chapter of my life is about end, slowly slipping through my fingers, and there's nothing I can do about it. The only thing left is to make it a memorable, unregrettable one. One can describe this sentiment in such figurative concepts, however I yearn to hang onto my naivety as much as possible, even though I'm just a few strands away from another fall in my life. It's funny how I'm looking at the juniors, enjoying their immaturity and innocence while experiencing trepidation in the sight of seniors. It was only a few years ago when I was in that phase, but look at me now. In a few terms, I'll be graduating and doing the hardest test of my life. Sometimes, I feel so emotionally touched that I feel like letting all my fears, my hopes and my sentiments out. I know that day will come and that will be the day I graduate and a Canley Vale student of 'O9. Sometimes I couldn't help but smile at how time flies. In junior years, we were the one being afraid but now, as seniors, we're the ones getting agitated by the juniors. I now know how the seniors feel when we arrived at the campus. I don't think I'll want to change anything in my life. There may be a few things I want to change, but overall the things that occured made me who I am today, for better or for worse. Preferrably better, of course =P (I hope so anyways). Now, I'll just flow with the time, and do my best in drinking everything in. Smile =).
Watching Mamma Mia isn't really helping either because I'm listening to a meaningful song. It really is a touching movie. I'll continue this another, when I have even more to say.
PS. Thanks Katty for the chocolate marble bread, it was really tasty! And sorry for making you walk so far for your tutor!
The sweet substance of vanilla latte slid down my throat as I glanced toward the graying sky. My companion, Katty, questioned me for my thoughts. I smiled in reply.
"I'm just wondering how, in 5 years time, although we'll be looking at the same sky we'll be far apart."
That's right. I told Katty I am afraid of the future; of what tomorrow will bring. Then we had few rhetorical questions about tomorrow and present (reference to the conversation in English class). I feel excited yet scared at the same time. I reminiscent about the few memories I had of my childhood, and then the tears and joy during adolescence. Another chapter of my life is about end, slowly slipping through my fingers, and there's nothing I can do about it. The only thing left is to make it a memorable, unregrettable one. One can describe this sentiment in such figurative concepts, however I yearn to hang onto my naivety as much as possible, even though I'm just a few strands away from another fall in my life. It's funny how I'm looking at the juniors, enjoying their immaturity and innocence while experiencing trepidation in the sight of seniors. It was only a few years ago when I was in that phase, but look at me now. In a few terms, I'll be graduating and doing the hardest test of my life. Sometimes, I feel so emotionally touched that I feel like letting all my fears, my hopes and my sentiments out. I know that day will come and that will be the day I graduate and a Canley Vale student of 'O9. Sometimes I couldn't help but smile at how time flies. In junior years, we were the one being afraid but now, as seniors, we're the ones getting agitated by the juniors. I now know how the seniors feel when we arrived at the campus. I don't think I'll want to change anything in my life. There may be a few things I want to change, but overall the things that occured made me who I am today, for better or for worse. Preferrably better, of course =P (I hope so anyways). Now, I'll just flow with the time, and do my best in drinking everything in. Smile =).
Watching Mamma Mia isn't really helping either because I'm listening to a meaningful song. It really is a touching movie. I'll continue this another, when I have even more to say.
PS. Thanks Katty for the chocolate marble bread, it was really tasty! And sorry for making you walk so far for your tutor!
Sunday 8 March 2009
Enlightened.
Reading Wendy's blogs made me realised how utterly incompetent I am. I feel like I've brought shame to those who do 3U English. Here I am, writing in the perception of a 7-year-old while Wendy, a 10th grader, expresses her emotions with such articulate descriptions and heightening emotions. Look at me. I write like I have no care in the world! Ridiculous. Absolutely ridiculous! Initially, I was suffering from a writer's block for my english assessment but now, my mind just flew out of the window, while laughing at my lack of intelligence with such a vindictive manner. Screw you!
Friday 6 March 2009
literally crushed
Have you ever been crushed? Oh course not to death, but have you ever been stepped on, sat on, slept on, etc? I have ... by my biology teacher! I still can't believe he actually sat on me! Okay, so I guess I deserved to be punished but to be sat on? I don't think so! It all started with Eric and Lisa G. when t hey were playing with this volley ball. She passed it to me, and Mr. Ward came in and hit her on the head, then I passed it to Lisa G. as he came toward me to get the ball off of me, but then she passed it to Anna, who then passed it to me. I tried to throw it at Maylina, but he hit the ball away. Hence, the race to the ball. There were a lot of kicking, pulling and pushing. but evetually I got the ball but not before I got sat on by Mr. Ward xO! ROFLMAOS! It was a funny moment, but it's okay hahaha =D.
You know, I do believe he should respect other people's religion. For example, Phillip's Christian and hearing the comments he makes can really hurt. I think I'll have a talk with Mr. Ward on Monday =). I do think that a lot of people think Phillip is a good guy, and he sure is =). I played with his two dogs today; Tommy and Charlie. Tommy's a boy and Charlie's a girl. They are so cute, fluffy and white! My Toby is still adorable =D!
The Mardi Gras is on this weekend, but I highly doubt I'm going because I need to study for my exams. *sigh* Oh wells, I'm not to sure what to do there anyways besides viewing the parade. The last time I've ever been to the Mardi Gras was when I was little and all I remember was the flouro lights, darkness and bottle smashing. The bottle smashing was the reason why my family decided to go home early. After that, I never bothered to go to this event. It's okay, I have plenty of chances since this happens every year anyways. I think this should do it for now =). Bye Bye!
You know, I do believe he should respect other people's religion. For example, Phillip's Christian and hearing the comments he makes can really hurt. I think I'll have a talk with Mr. Ward on Monday =). I do think that a lot of people think Phillip is a good guy, and he sure is =). I played with his two dogs today; Tommy and Charlie. Tommy's a boy and Charlie's a girl. They are so cute, fluffy and white! My Toby is still adorable =D!
The Mardi Gras is on this weekend, but I highly doubt I'm going because I need to study for my exams. *sigh* Oh wells, I'm not to sure what to do there anyways besides viewing the parade. The last time I've ever been to the Mardi Gras was when I was little and all I remember was the flouro lights, darkness and bottle smashing. The bottle smashing was the reason why my family decided to go home early. After that, I never bothered to go to this event. It's okay, I have plenty of chances since this happens every year anyways. I think this should do it for now =). Bye Bye!
Wednesday 4 March 2009
pms rage
I believe the title is quite self explaining, don't you think? Yeah, I've been stressed out lately. Just studying makes me feel stressed LOL but that doesn't mean I'm going to stop studying just for the sake of having less stress. I'd rather stress now than stress even more for the rest of my life! You know, I was starting to doubt things when my red friend didn't come last month. I talked to my science teacher, Mrs. Rogers, and she just assumed the worst: pregnancy. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! HELL NO!! I'M A PROUD VIRGIN HERE! So the next thing was stress. I think so too. It was so unlucky when it came at the worst time EVER - just before my assessment test =.='! Seriously, I think I should give it an alias of 'the red devil' instead now! Oh wells, at least this proves that I'm not pregnant =)!
I must say, I DO believe someone hates me up there *looks up to the ceiling* because the other day in chemistry class, Jacky accidentally rolled a test tube to the ground and guess what? It didn't break. ARE YOU F**KING KIDDING ME?! I mean, when I accidentally drop it into the sink, it cracks, but when Jacky drops it to the ground, it doesn't. Almost every bloody time, whatever glassware I touch, it breaks. Seriously, this is NOT funny anymore! (Or maybe a bit?) Matthew and Nathan were cracking up jokes about it and how I got owned.
Matthew: Hey Fiona, do you know what the moral of this is?
Fiona: What?
Matthew: Nothing, there IS no moral. You just got owned!
LALALA! I DON"T WANT TO HEAR IT!
On Tuesday, I had a meeting with the others and we had a pretty fun time talking about possible games to 'break the ice' on Induction Day (which was today). Andrew had a really good idea, but he managed to make a clown out of himself again =). Unfortunately, under the circumstances we were given, it was highly UNLIKELY that we would be able to conduct that specific 'game' successfully. It was called effective discussions. Instead, we played 'BANG' and 'KNOTS.' I thought Tuyet, Maxine, and Kevin's idea of 'Chinese Opera' was fun to play! I guess not everyone thought the same =D. Anyways, today was pretty tiring, chaotic, loud and humid! THANKS TO WENDY we managed to make it to the location of the meeting, and THANKS TO KATTY for the food because it made me feel so much better! The leaders tried to socialise with everyone so they wouldn't feel lonely. We had quite a lot of 'noise' from a group of boys and I lost myself a couple of times trying to control them. That's okay, because it worked =), though I got really tired afterward hahaha! I think it's due to my pms that I actually got the courage to do all those mad things today. Oh wells! Anyways, I'm pretty tired by now so I'll stop here =).
TOODLES!
I must say, I DO believe someone hates me up there *looks up to the ceiling* because the other day in chemistry class, Jacky accidentally rolled a test tube to the ground and guess what? It didn't break. ARE YOU F**KING KIDDING ME?! I mean, when I accidentally drop it into the sink, it cracks, but when Jacky drops it to the ground, it doesn't. Almost every bloody time, whatever glassware I touch, it breaks. Seriously, this is NOT funny anymore! (Or maybe a bit?) Matthew and Nathan were cracking up jokes about it and how I got owned.
Matthew: Hey Fiona, do you know what the moral of this is?
Fiona: What?
Matthew: Nothing, there IS no moral. You just got owned!
LALALA! I DON"T WANT TO HEAR IT!
On Tuesday, I had a meeting with the others and we had a pretty fun time talking about possible games to 'break the ice' on Induction Day (which was today). Andrew had a really good idea, but he managed to make a clown out of himself again =). Unfortunately, under the circumstances we were given, it was highly UNLIKELY that we would be able to conduct that specific 'game' successfully. It was called effective discussions. Instead, we played 'BANG' and 'KNOTS.' I thought Tuyet, Maxine, and Kevin's idea of 'Chinese Opera' was fun to play! I guess not everyone thought the same =D. Anyways, today was pretty tiring, chaotic, loud and humid! THANKS TO WENDY we managed to make it to the location of the meeting, and THANKS TO KATTY for the food because it made me feel so much better! The leaders tried to socialise with everyone so they wouldn't feel lonely. We had quite a lot of 'noise' from a group of boys and I lost myself a couple of times trying to control them. That's okay, because it worked =), though I got really tired afterward hahaha! I think it's due to my pms that I actually got the courage to do all those mad things today. Oh wells! Anyways, I'm pretty tired by now so I'll stop here =).
TOODLES!
Sunday 1 March 2009
wild weekend
Last Friday and Saturday sure were exciting. On Friday, I participated in the sound + stage setup workshop # 4, where other volunteerers, and I, would have to work as a 'sound helper' and help the rock and acoustic bands with their performance. We had free dinner, so it was okay. I like the acoustic band the most, but then I only managed to stay for 3 out of the 4 bands because I had to leave early. On Saturday, I had to walk all the way to Bonnirigg youth center. I think it's safe to say that I DID EXERCISE MUM! xO! 1 hour's worth of walking! That's triple the amount of how long a person should exercise each day =.='. Luckily, they only just started when I got there, because they were waiting for other people to come. Anyways, I like this workshop the most. It's a digital workshop. Tuyet, Stuart and I were doing fllming acitivities while the rest were doing animation activities. We had free brunch and lunch, and they were tasty so it's okay =D! After the workshop, Andrew was nice enough to drive me to the city, to buy some stuff, and shout me fishballs to eat. THANK YOU ANDREW! It was really good! I never knew that D2K sold fishballs! I thought they just sell desserts! Anyways, my weekends are pretty goo =). I'm kind of sick today, but it's okay. Anyways, I need to wrap this up now because I need to study for my Bussiness Studies assessment and start on my Ext. English assessment as well. *sigh*
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